Speaking of therapy..adolescent America
Yesterday I went to my first appointment with the psychologist who seems to be a psychotherapist as well. After he asked me for my reason for being there (and no btw, I'm not breaking my HIPPAA rule), he asked me a bit of history about myself. I jokingly said well, you know that list with the stress factors? Or it's called life changes chart (could only find one reference), well, I told him a preliminary time line of all my moves and changes and he said, wow! You're off the chart no wonder you're here! It actually made me feel good. It validated that it's not just a weakness or "it's all in my head", although, it kinda is of course. I've been feeling for a while as if all the things that have happened to me over the past 22 years since I emigrated, just saturated my system and I needed to find a way to get it out. I've moved more times than I like to remember, and come to think of it, I will make a time line for the good doctor so he can have a quick reference and poke and prod in a easier manner rather than just letting me talk. It's overwhelming to think of the things that have built up in me, but not so overwhelming that I feel I can't take it anymore. I've been on the Lexapro for little over a week and the xanax (the 'baby xanax'as the doctor called it) helps me to start the day.
As we briefly talked about culture and my experience/difficulties with this (American) culture vs the one I grew up in, he referred to this country as an 'adolescent' country. Aside from having been around for a relative short while, the values and attitudes are still far from mature. That reminded me of all the pathetic political ads I have been seeing on tv. Even when/if a candidate wants to expose the incumbents' or the opponents' short comings or illegal/clandestine affairs, you'd think, that's what you have the press for. The smear campaigns on either side just seem so immature and pathetic to me, I would not want to vote for anyone who runs a campaign like that. The excuse used is that 'the other one does it' and 'it works', but what does it say about American voters? What does it say about this culture? Yep, it's highschool adolescent behaviour although that said, I don't think in highschool that such behaviour is accepted.